NOT A RANT. JUST A REALIZATION.

What's up?

Negation on what you can see at my FB profile, things aren't perfect at all.

1. Family

Di man ako makasama sa Family lunch every Sunday, I make sure na nakakauwi ako every off ko. Masarap sa bahay, I admit. Some things are changed when I started to give money for household - the catch is, I don't know what are those things. They aren't bad. Nakaramdam lang talaga ng changes. Haha. One thing's for sure, one of my life goals is now achieved.

2. Work

Everything's fine. The people.. The job itself. Magfo4 months na ko oh. Haha. I guess nakakaadjust na ko completely. Tho sometimes our schedule makes me sad. Haha

3. Friends

Maka-S naman ako kala mo naman madami. Hahaha. I got time to catch up with Sis, Sis and Ann, Yuichi and Robert.. I miss our HS barkada - the boys and the gals. Hay. This is it.. May be by now you can sense what's this post all about.

4. Church

Everytime I think about this.. nalulungkot lang ako. Ilang months na kong di nakakapagsimba. Yes, seryosong nakakalungkot. Tithes are absolutely not enough. I miss the aura of God inside His house.. the imcomparable feeling of being blessed.

5. Her

We're fine. Not perfectly fine but we love each other perfectly, I guess :) Siguro kung hindi kami magakasama sa bahay, di kami magtatagal. Yes, proximity really matters to me. Her 2 months at Cebu just made me realize that I am really not for LDR. Hahahaha. Jealousy? I am fixing that on my own. It's a self problem. LQs are fine. But the magic is, I never hated her. Everytime we have problem, sa sarili ko ako nagagalit. She loves me very much. Very very much. No one knows how much she loves me. Sometimes.. even me.

6. Self

Me and Merryl do not have time together this past few months. Yes busy palagi. I have no time for myself except when I am sleeping. Obviously, I even don't have time for this until now. Di lang ako makatulog na. People around aren't responsible for this, siguro something's wrong with what I am doing now.

Time guys. No one said I will definitely be lacked of this thing when adulthood comes in. Kulang ang 24 hours at 7 days kung gugustuhin kong maging perfect daughter, sister, employee, friend, His child and lover -- all at a time. Sad life haha

This is not a rant. I love my life now. Everyone should love life.

Merryl? I missed you very much.