Sun is shining bright but I want for a rain
Hi.
Umm hello bloggy. Mejo awkward since it has been more than 2 months ago yung latest entry ko. Not that I have nothing to tell, but I was just extremely busy.
Two months. I never been busy again since Numero days or Orientation days. Hahaha. So college pa no? Well, not just busy. As in mentally and emotionally and phsically, busy.
Acads. For two months, I had 3 exams already, 2 for STAT 222 and STAT 260, and two problem sets, both for STAT 222. I have so much in mind and I cannot take the risk to share those since alam naman nating madami akong hater. One thing is for sure, I am enjoying this Statistics roads. Haha. Don't get me wrong, yung isa sa mga favorite branch ko naman ng Mathematics is andito, probability. Kaya di ako nagttraydor sa Math. Hehe *heart eyes* Also, studying at UP means that patapos pa lang ang sem. Thus, two more exams and a problem set! *crossed fingers* *calling all saints*
Office. Yes, promoted again. Unfortunately. Haha. I guess no one can understand me except for Aryan. We've been regularized as employees by first quarter of 2014. Senior agents by first quarter of 2015. And now, OICs. Maygad. I guess, kung di lang nila inaway si K, atleast, tatlo kaming nagshashare ng dilemma na ganito. Pressure guys. Pressure. Idk if there are people who had a transition like this in their respective careers. Annually, magaddjust. Annually, additional responsibilities (uh-uh, not change in responsibilities, additional mga pare) Annually, more expectations. Annually, you have to meet those expectations. Buti sana kung di kami mabubuting empleyado na okay lang na di magawa ang trabaho ng maayos basta nasweldo eh. Eh hindi. I had nights crying just to let these pressure be out of me so it would not eat me alive. Nakakainis. Bakit ka kasi workaholic, Meh?! And yes, factor kasi na crush mo ang boss mo. Hahaha. Kaya ta*na, you are inspired kahit na ayaw mo inspire.
Car. Guys, yes, I have my own car na. Hyundai's Eon, the silver one so you could Google it. Haha. I was so happy. Hello, serious yung life goal ko na before turning 25, I should have a car na :) Ang saya no? *smug* I attended driving lessons also. Ang saya lang. And btw, manual transmission yung car so yes, cool girls do manual *smug again* Hahaha. Tho, natatakot pa ako sa uphill. And wtf di ba, everyday, I go through Batasan Hills - both for school and work. Rwr. Hahaha. So I am ought to master that skill. For those who are not aware, uphill road and manual trans do not go together well, at least, for me. Huhu.
But before I had time to blog it and share the news to you, may battle-scar na siya. P*ta. See, before turning 25, I have my own car na with battle-scar. Please don't make it plural. Just to share, sobrang sakit sa puso na nabunggo siya. At ako pa shempre may kasalanan kaya dagdag sa hapdi sa puso. Maygad. For heaven's sake, I own that car. Sobrang sakit na nagkadamage agad siya. And to tell you, di pa kame nagmmonth anniversary. Haha. May 03 ko pala siya nakuha, and named her Eoonie :) Then, last Friday the 13th, I planned to bring her sa Church for blessing and break in na rin. Tadah, paglabas ng garahe... @#*&@$&*(Q#&^#(#$
And that moment, the earth shook me off from my life. I realized na masyado akong busy sa buhay. Di na kinaya ng mentalidad ko, hindi na siya napahinga. Alam mo yung feeling na di ka makatulog or makapagpahinga ng ayos dahil sa mga iniisip mo? Di na kaya ng emosyon ko. Nakakadown na since lagi kong pinapatunayan yung sarili ko sa ibang tao and believe it or not, pati sa sarili ko mismo. Di na kaya ng pisiks ko. Maygad, I had some weeks na uuwi lang ako para mahiga for few minutes then ligo ulit. Nagtataka nga ako bt di ako nagkakasakit. Edi sana makapaglegit SL ako.
Sumabay pa pala yung stress ng Eleksyon. And I won't discuss it here. One word for my fellow countrymen, nakakatanga. HAHAHA.
And stress dahil sa declined vacation leave request ng tropa ko sa office. Yes, hanggang ngayon dala ko siya. Gusto ko na magresign. Maygad, and don't ever accuse me of being mababaw. Malamang, hindi lang yon reason ko. And scratch that pala, excited na ko magresign. Less than 5 months *super smug*
And stress dahil magreresign na yung "best friend" ko sa office. Actually not best friend eh. Kewl lang dahil pareho kami sa maraming bagay. And being in a department with most of the agents are.. Nevermind. Well, siya lang kakampi ko sa mga thoughts ko. If she's not agree with it, at least, gets niya. Hahaha. Eh yung ibang kakilala ko nga, di nga nagegets sinasabi ko, makapagdisagree, kala mo buong buhay ko mali ako. Sh*t people.
And stress dahil, haggang ngayon wala pa akong lakwatsa na malupit. Well, I will have my first for this year next week. Shempre dahil super friendly ko, mag isa lang ulit ako, solo travel :)
There. There. At least, had a time to vent out most of the things this morning. Been in Graveyard shift for the past month and starting today (for the next four weeks), afternoon shift na! My favorite except for the fact that the sun is shining oh so bright.
Buhos na ulan please.