Wish granted
1. Eating almost none. Check.
2. Sleeping less than 5 hours. Check.
3. Isolation. Check.
4. Blogging. Check.
QED. I am depressed.
There, self. You asked for it. Wag ka magreklamo. Haha
I am 25 and still getting depressed. May be people are now saying, "Oh, ano ka?" while grinning. I don't care actually. Or at least, I am trying not to care. Well, how should I say this. Hmm.. Nabibingi ako sa thought bubbles ko na naglalaman kung ano sa tingin kong iniisip nila, pero wala akong pake. Ganon.
Society is molding us to think that depression during this age is "petty" Nararamdaman kong parang wala na kong karapatan ma-depress. Hindi ako makatweet ng walang takot na majudge. Sauce. So yung defense mechanism kong SNS accounts ko kausap ko sa ganitong panahon, nawala. Mas na-restrain ako sa emotions ko, sa sarili kong mundo. San ako tatakbo?
I'll summarize the reason in two lines:
LOOK, I JUST WANTED TO DO WHAT I WANT. AND YES, I AM STILL NOT ABLE TO DO IT NOW. BUT I WANT IT. AND I CAN NOT HAVE IT WHILE I AM AT THAT PLACE. I FEEL THAT THE UNIVERSE IS TELLING ME THAT IT WAS NOT A GOOD CHOICE. HELLO FOR CRYING OUT LOUD.
Kaya I am feeling this again and being atelophobic is not helping.
Ang dami kong gustong sabihin pero di ko mailabas. Ni hindi nga ako maka-iyak eh.
Do I make sense here? No? Okay. You're normal.
2. Sleeping less than 5 hours. Check.
3. Isolation. Check.
4. Blogging. Check.
QED. I am depressed.
There, self. You asked for it. Wag ka magreklamo. Haha
I am 25 and still getting depressed. May be people are now saying, "Oh, ano ka?" while grinning. I don't care actually. Or at least, I am trying not to care. Well, how should I say this. Hmm.. Nabibingi ako sa thought bubbles ko na naglalaman kung ano sa tingin kong iniisip nila, pero wala akong pake. Ganon.
Society is molding us to think that depression during this age is "petty" Nararamdaman kong parang wala na kong karapatan ma-depress. Hindi ako makatweet ng walang takot na majudge. Sauce. So yung defense mechanism kong SNS accounts ko kausap ko sa ganitong panahon, nawala. Mas na-restrain ako sa emotions ko, sa sarili kong mundo. San ako tatakbo?
I'll summarize the reason in two lines:
LOOK, I JUST WANTED TO DO WHAT I WANT. AND YES, I AM STILL NOT ABLE TO DO IT NOW. BUT I WANT IT. AND I CAN NOT HAVE IT WHILE I AM AT THAT PLACE. I FEEL THAT THE UNIVERSE IS TELLING ME THAT IT WAS NOT A GOOD CHOICE. HELLO FOR CRYING OUT LOUD.
Kaya I am feeling this again and being atelophobic is not helping.
Ang dami kong gustong sabihin pero di ko mailabas. Ni hindi nga ako maka-iyak eh.
Do I make sense here? No? Okay. You're normal.