Of overdoses and tears

Hello again. Episode last night. Actually until today. Feeling under the weather. Not sick, sick. But I am just tired of everything. I used the word tired, a lot 'no?

Nag away na naman kame ni Dan kagabe. Actually kasalanan ng attitude ko. Bakit kasi di ko napipigilan emosyon ko?

1. Nakapacalm niya

2. Bumabaha ng emosyon ko

3. Pagod na siya magexplain

4. Paulit ulit arguments ko

5. Di niya naiintindihan na kailangan ko lang ng comfort

6. Di ko maintindihan na di naman kami para ibigay niya yon

7. Pakiramdam ko napipilitan lang siya whenever he does something that implies he cares

8. Naooffend siya sa feeling ko na yon

9. Gusto ko maging kame, pero hindi ko rin gusto #defensemehcanism

10. Ayaw din naman niya maging kame hence he does no boyfriend stuff

11. I expect boyfriend stuff

12. He's not into those stuff

13. I want to look pleasant before him

14. Idk what's he's take on item 13

15. I am demanding, difficult, baliw, toxic, undeserving

16. He's willing to stay

17. I have episodes that I want to et him go

18. He stays

19. I have episodes that I want to die

20. He's frustrated about it

21. We are okay when we are together

22. Of course, we are.

23. I can imagine life without him again, that will be sad

24. I don't know if he wants me to exists as long as I would want to 

25. Pagod na ko

26. Napapagod din siya

27. Nasasaktan ako sa harsh words niya

28. Hindi ba harsh din ako sa mga thoughts ko?

What I am so sure of is I love him and I want to stay. Will you allow me, Dennis?