Leave to Live

Which will you choose?

Be the one who leaves or be the one who is left behind?

Being left with prior notice or being left unexpectedly?

I hate the thought of leaving. Parang napakaunfair para sa mga iiwan mo. Same yung notion ko sa kanya with unloving people. How will you be able to hurt people who you have treasured?

When I applied three years ago, ang sabi ko sa sarili ko, gusto ko yung work na hindi ako magreresign, yung magtatagal. Yung time na yun, ang iniisip ko is, unfair sa company na training grounds mo lang sila for another company na magbibigay ng better opportunity for you.

I accepted BTI's job offer. Salary wise, location wise (kasi nga sort of live in kami nung ex ko dati), work itself wise (interesting kasi, hello online gaming) and most especially, yung boss. 

Photo not mine. From Google Images

Sir Dj as a superior is the best thing you will have. 

He is smart. He loves his job. He is considerate. He listens. He is a good teacher. He gives advice and thoughts on things and you will be surprised on how he thinks. He trusts his people. He fights for his people. And he is a friend. 

He is one of the few people that made my work place a happy place for me.

Lol. Shempre we are cats and dogs most of the time. Pero most of the time din, we have the same goal, same stand. Para siyang Aryan pero higher rank for me. A friend and a person who you will love to work with. 

I understand his reasons as much as I have my reasons why will I resign also.

And that made me think, leaving is not about leaving the people you love/d. You are leaving because you also have to live. You have to survive, You have your own fight that even you hate that it affects other people, you will aim to survive.

Leaving people hurts as much as being left when it involves love. The thought of being separated with the person/thing you love hurts alone. No matter side you are, you endure sadness.

It made me also think that leaving or being left do not care about time. Whether you leave with notice or you leave unexpectedly, it hurts anyway. That pain will be gone after enough time. And "enough" depends on every person who will experience that pain. 

So it is weird that I experience both ends now. I do not know. The amount of work that I have to finish before this month ends is my diversion from all of these.

Two weeks? Yes, after two weeks, my life will change and it will obviously go on - without Sir Dj in my life and without me in BTI.