You must survive this year, Merryl.

Hello 2018.

Haha. Sorry bloggie for the broken promise last month, last year rather. You know, super busy. I have to juggle my school, emotions, work, suicidal thoughts, friends, depression, family responsibilities, ignoring atelophobia, and church duties.

First 10 days palang ng year.

Pero eto, nagkasakit na (though pagaling na) and cried enough for 3 months. Di naman ako nasstress. I think manhid na talaga ako. Or super sineset ko lang mind ko not to stress myself. Kase beshy, ang emosyon ko. Haha

Life status check

1. Work is still good. May attachment na ko sa kanila. Kaya patay tayo diyan HAHAHA May normal office issues shempre pero kaya naman. Sobrang layo pa sa anxiety na naranasan ko sa BTI.

2. School is ummm. Wag niyo ko papagalitan! Haha. Enrolled 10 units this sem. I need distractions. Hehe. And excited na ko gumrad *smug* And had good grades din last semester *super smuuug*

3. Finances. Ohyep gapang padin haha. Chill lang. Two things for this year, trust fund and tithes.

4. Friends errrr. Decided to minimize meeting them. Burden na rin naman sa iba (emphasis sa hindi lahat) sa kanila everytime makikipagkita ako. Had enough rejections na sa pagyaya, so ayun. Pero shempre, once magyaya sila, go lang hehe 🖤 Sila pa ba?

5. Family. Sila goal ko this year. Hence, fourth point.

6. Church. Pwede bang tumira na lang sa church. Wala akong nararamdamang negative emotions pag andun ako eh. Lord, pakapit lang forever ha. Don't let me stray away again from You. Amen.

7. Self, gusto ko mag out of town tayo sa birthday ko hehe. Andddd magcharity this year. Gusto ko rin umakyat ng bundok. At shempre, mag beach. Required na may dosage of sea breeze tayo every year. Hehe

Thought of writing my sadness out on this entry kaso nakaiyak na pala ako kanina habang nagttweet. Hehe. Yep, nasa Starbucks nga pala ako 😆

Napagoals this year na lang tuloy topic ko yay

For documentation ng feels:
IG coffee post
Twitter suicidal thoughts

Love you so much bloggie/self. You know how to calm every outrageous part inside me.