Unwilled

It keeps swinging
Back and forth

It keeps doubting
This or that

It keeps falling
Numbing yet endless

The will to live
Is a variable to me

A dependent one
Changes with some X's and Y's

Misleading seasonality
Misbehaving cyclicality

Everyday fluctuates
Difficult to forecast

It keeps me sleepless
During tiresome nights

It keeps me insane
During lonely nights

It kills me every night