DEAR DAN (OPEN LETTER NO. 4)
Hello Dan,
I just have to tell you things, kahit some of them ay nasabi ko na.
1. The discussion about me being not enough
Idk how to explain the feeling pero recurring siya. Siya yung main reason of me being diagnosed with depression. Yep, alam mo naman na si nanay yung epicenter ng emotions ko on this issue. Mahal ko si nanay at lahat ng nakapaligid sa kin na inaassume kong may expectations sakin. I just need to learn not to live in those. Kasi imagination ko lang yung expectations nila.
2. Loving myself
Sabi ni Yuichi, di ko rin daw mahal sarili ko. Having you both saying that concern, baka nga tama. Pero bakit para sakin selfish na ko masyado. Me asking you to stay is loving myself. Me taking meds is loving myself. Me choosing to love everyone around is loving myself.
3. Seeking God
Like what I have said, I am waiting for Him to find me. I know He will. Wasak ako pero I know deep down, I still love our God.
4. Being okay
Let me set my goals on this. You have planted in my mind na being okay needs goals to be one. Mahirap nga siya. Pero I'll try, kahit magfail ako. I'll try again. I promise.
5. Me having you
It is like having an angel beside me. A soulmate. A partner. Another me, not half. You being there says a lot about how much you care. And thank you for that, God knows how grateful I am. Let me have this mindset, na I will exert an effort to be okay for you.
I love you more after last night. Thank you, mahal.
I just have to tell you things, kahit some of them ay nasabi ko na.
1. The discussion about me being not enough
Idk how to explain the feeling pero recurring siya. Siya yung main reason of me being diagnosed with depression. Yep, alam mo naman na si nanay yung epicenter ng emotions ko on this issue. Mahal ko si nanay at lahat ng nakapaligid sa kin na inaassume kong may expectations sakin. I just need to learn not to live in those. Kasi imagination ko lang yung expectations nila.
2. Loving myself
Sabi ni Yuichi, di ko rin daw mahal sarili ko. Having you both saying that concern, baka nga tama. Pero bakit para sakin selfish na ko masyado. Me asking you to stay is loving myself. Me taking meds is loving myself. Me choosing to love everyone around is loving myself.
3. Seeking God
Like what I have said, I am waiting for Him to find me. I know He will. Wasak ako pero I know deep down, I still love our God.
4. Being okay
Let me set my goals on this. You have planted in my mind na being okay needs goals to be one. Mahirap nga siya. Pero I'll try, kahit magfail ako. I'll try again. I promise.
5. Me having you
It is like having an angel beside me. A soulmate. A partner. Another me, not half. You being there says a lot about how much you care. And thank you for that, God knows how grateful I am. Let me have this mindset, na I will exert an effort to be okay for you.
I love you more after last night. Thank you, mahal.