No to LDR.

She just texted about that th'all-transfer-to-Japan joke and the idea of it swallowed me.

I am not a person for long distance relationships, you should be aware of that.

Trusting her is not the issue here. Trusting her environment is. Yes, the environment - people ('friends'), events, real-time emotions she'll feel. All of those. 

Or maybe trusting myself is. I just can't trust myself if I can endure a long distance relationship. My mind is so good in making imaginative negative scenes at its perfect timing when I am so emotionally weak. I can't control this. It just happen.

I want us to be close as much as I can - especially, in physical.

PS I hope she won't think that she said something wrong again. I am just an OA. Everyone knows that.