A new fort

This draft has been in my box for 10 months already.

And it has been 2 years since I last wrote a blog. 

Still the same human that cries her heart out almost every night.

I have tried and am still trying to live the life my Creator gave me to the fullest.

Creating a new website doesn't mean throwing 10 years worth of tears.

That's almost a third of my lifetime (as of writing)

I was 20 when I published by first entry for this website

And was 31 when I wrote a goodbye to some few friends, 

that's apparently, technically, my last entry.

Approximately, 10 years of crying from

Wondering about random THOUGHTS

Feeling a roller coaster of EMOTIONS

Taming the ANGST of the monster inside me

Talking with myself to discuss endless REASONS

and

Cherishing all those SMILES whatever reason it came from

I was heartbroken when I started writing in this little corner

And yes, I am, again, heartbroken today as I write this last entry

The difference is the reason behind creating a new website

I had so much eagerness to explain myself to other people when I was 20,

but now, I am hoping to understand myself, my life, and what I am doing..

In the most logical way

The difference is the experiences I both treasure and regret

The difference is the organ that I am now putting in command

The difference is where I am in my life right now

Time is running out

My parents are growing old

My brothers are also growing up as adults

My friends are living their own lives

My heart has too much pain and sadness

My mind tries its best to hold up and be sane

Time is running out

I have to act now

Enough with heartbreaks

Enough with melancholic thoughts

Enough with sad songs and poems

Let's put the wall up again - here's my new fortress.