Camaraderie.

My conscience's bubbling about this recently. I had too much of this for the past weeks. And for me, it's bad. Very bad.

I learned about this word when I got in to this org. Oh yeah, I am a member of such an academic org. It is represented by the thumb when it comes to our handshake (index fingers for acdemic excellence and the other three stands for the org's three principles). My personal meaning for this: responsibility to strengthen the bond among ourselves.

1. When our first SE arrived. (August 17, 2012)

I have the choice not to entertain that man but my conscience told me to do so. I am ashamed that no one's exerting some effort for him. His position, his name took the power to command myself to have my time spent on him instead of working on my SP. I am not the freaking MemCom Head anymore, but argh. The conscience told me to waste my time for this org.

Ending: I was drunk and did grr-stuffs.

2. When I attended BM. (August 22, 2012)

I have the choice not to attend but my conscience told me to do so. Actually, Nak told me to do so. The thought that he is so special for me took the power to command myself to have my time spent on watching them instead of studying. I am not freaking oh-so-good member anymore, but argh. The conscience told me to waste my time for this org.

Ending: I went home with a heavy heart.

3. When those K*RAS arrived. (August 25, 2012)

I have the choice not to meet them but my conscience told me to do so. I just want to meet Kareen but to meet the other sisses is not part of my intentions. Our friendship before the 'war' happened took the power to command myself to have my time spent on them instead of resting. I am not freaking interested to have them back as my friends, but argh. The conscience told me to waste my time for this org.

Ending: We did not talk.

4. When they played. (August 27, 2012)

I have the choice not to watch them but my conscience told me to do so. I love watching them play games. The love for the org took the power to command myself, actually to encourage myself more, to have my time spent on them instead of going home. I am not freaking liked-by-the-others member anymore, but argh. The conscience told me to waste my time for this org.

Ending: We won 5 out of 6 games :))

Sighs.

Then for all of these, I'll say just two words: I ENJOYED.

This group of people became my best teacher. It made me cry drums of tears, but it made me smile a million times. I loved them very much that it hated me equally. But the ahte is not sufficient enough to never see them. May be it's the rule of life.

Love overpowers hate. It's always like that.

Enjoyment than regrets. Hugs than tears. Laughs than curses. Will than fear. Good than evil.

Love than hate.

It's amazing how God applied that to our atmosphere. It made life lighter to live.