Insecurities, tears, et al.

Two days before graduation.

And I can't smile.

Tears keep on falling. I just can't stop them.

When someone made you feel that you are EXTREMELY NOT ENOUGH for her, it is the worst.

Insecurities are mixed in the air I breathe. It is not jealousy anymore.

Our last things will be remembered as sad stories. Like her, I am saddened by that fact.

I want to hold her hands as firm as possible.

I want to hug her as tight as possible.

I want to stay beside her as long as possible.

I want to prepare her breakfast.

I want to wake her up and kiss her good morning.

I want to put on her eyeglasses and be the first thing she will see clearly.

I want to be the person she is with during her first meal for the day.

I want to prepare her things before she goes to her office.

I want to text her and make her feel that she's the most special person for me.

I want to prepare her dinner and wait for her until she gets home.

I want to be the person she is with during her last meal of the day.

I want to brush my teeth with her every night.

I want to watch TV with her until I am tired.

I want to kiss her good night.

I want to put off her eyeglasses and be the last thing she will see clearly.

Forever.

I don't want to lose her. But everytime I am like this - sad, depressed, it may cause her to leave me, right?

I love her so much. So I wish that tears would dry soon.