Jealousy.

The cancer of relationships.

Why do jealousy exists? I say, it does when there is lack of assurance.

Oh yes. People tend to get jealous even they are already in their relationship. Though we all know that nothing's perfect, jealousy might be lessen.

I know jealousy is bad. (Oh gahd, my insecurities.) But to lose someone who is so dear to me? It may cause another death of my soul. I died once, I do not want to happen it again.

I do not get jealous for nothing. I have my reasons.

1. I never had the idea of having crush on someone whenever I am in a relationship. So I don't know the reasons of those people who do the otherwise. Is your partner not enough to aim for another person's attention or praise?

2. I had experience of having a partner who denied that she has a crush on someone and then recently, just recently, I learned that she had crush on her. Moreover, she wanted to court her if I was not existing that time. 

I just don't want to lose her! That is why I am f*cking jealous right now. Numbness, please do come to me.

Assurance. Trust. Love. Oh God.