Some updates

It's 2am and I am not sleeping. Been like this for the past couple of days because of kulitan with utols. No regrets though. I love these times with my brothers. I am just afraid of the side effect of not having a sleep and not taking my meds before bedtime. Well, YOLO hahaha

What's up, self?

I am actually seeing some improvements in me during this quarantine. Imagine I can stand being with my emotional trigger 24/7 and I almost never experience intense breakdowns. Has few but it less than 3 I think. See? I am good. *pats my own head*

Next, it is possible for me to be not clingy with my significant other. Just a few of what's ups and I am fine. Though the love I have now is at the same level with the previous ones, it is calmer now. More controlled. Dan is obviously the reason for being like this.

I thirst for new learning more than ever. Hay. I wanted to enroll sana this coming sem but this pandemic killed the vibe. Instead, I enroll to online courses that I impatiently take these past few days. Impatiently because nasa finish line agad tingin ko. Oh god. Mindfulness, Merryl. Think of now. Mind on the present.

Speaking of, I am scheduled for another psychiatrist visit by June but Idk if normal is something that will happen soon. Ughh.. I need a new prescription of Clonazepam. 

That's it for now. I supposed to work but I stopped since I need something from the department. Sooo.. I have time to study instead. Hehe. 

I am happy, today. Not too much. Just enough to live.