Cry.

Scene from Card Captor Sakura Ep 36 :)

Haha. Yep. I am watching this series. And this scene reminded me about him again. Actually, the inverse of that scene.

When our story ended, I cried. I cried beside him while we ride our way home. I cried but he did not do anything to comfort me. There, I realized, his side who couldn't give reassurance. To me, at least.

I cry. A lot. Believe it or not, tears are sacred for me. Crying doesn't mean I want people to have pity on me. I cry because I need to.

I cry whenever something touched my heart. Watching heartfelt scenes, for example. Not actually cry, hmm.. My eyes produce few tears. Hahaha.

I cry whenever I am mad. I can not be that evil to do something evil to the person I am mad at. I usually cry over that. I can not do what the antagonists in movies can and then have their bwahahaha-laugh. I am just waiting for their conscience to do something to them. Crying decreases the pain. Crying helps me to ignore them.

I cry whenever, of course, whenever I am sad. Heart-broken. Acad-related. Disappointment-handling. No one can stop me about that. Err, I read something like this in the internet -- "Painful emotions last for only 12 minutes. Longer than that is self-inflicted." And based on my exp, it is true. I can't cry for too long. Let's say, the pain won't last for 12 minutes but the drama?  Nvrmnd.

Well atleast now, I minimize the tears my eyes produce.

But I still need a man who will hug me and draw a smile on my face while I cry for 12 minutes :))